The apostle Didymus, best known as Thomas, is front and center in the Gospel reading for the second Sunday after Easter, Divine Mercy Sunday. This reading has the most famous reference to Thomas, John 20: 19-31. This is a unique reading as it is one of the few Sundays in a year where the same Gospel is read in each of the three cycles. So, at Sunday mass it will be read every year in the Sunday after Easter. This shows the importance of Thomas to the Easter story. This Gospel is referred to as Doubting Thomas; missing when Christ first appeared to the Apostles after his resurrection on Easter Sunday night, Thomas wanted certainty or proof of Jesus, which het got the following Sunday. The opposite of doubt could well be certainty.
The 2024 movie Conclave is now drawing significant interest among the public. One of the more memorable quotes in that movie is when the dean of the college of Cardinals, Thomas Lawrence, yes, he is named Thomas, goes off-script during a homily at the opening mass for the upcoming conclave. He says:
My brothers and sisters, in the course of a long life in the service of our Mother the Church, let me tell you that the one sin I have come to fear more than any other is certainty. Certainty is the great enemy of unity. Certainty is the deadly enemy of tolerance. Even Christ was not certain at the end. 'Eli Eli, lama sabachtani?' He cried out in His agony at the ninth hour on the cross. 'My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?' Our faith is a living thing precisely because it walks hand in hand with doubt. If there was only certainty, and if there was no doubt, there would be no mystery, and therefore no need for faith.
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I am not sure that Thomas was a doubter. Doubt means that you are not sure. Thomas actually seems more certain than doubtful, John's Gospel has Thomas saying: “Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails, and place my finger into the mark of the nails, and place my hand into his side, I will never believe.” He does not say, "Well, I am not sure, but I sure would like to see his nail marks and put my dirty finger in his side." If he is anything, Thomas is inquisitive and wants proof. I have often been compared to St Thomas the Apostle, not because I am a twin, and Thomas means twin, but because I am viewed as skeptical, and at times contrarian. One commentator says Thomas did not doubt the resurrection, he rejected it until he had proof. Of course, earlier when Jesus was to head to Judea, after the Lazurus situation all the apostles but Thomas were hesitant (John 11:16). He boldly stated the need to follow Christ. Yet, Thomas has been hung with the moniker Doubting Thomas, and that will probably stick with him in a society that desires certainty.
The quote from Conclave is quite interesting simply because so many think that belief is certainty. Yet, all have doubts, and we would not be human if we did not. One of the greatest saints of modern times, Mother Teresa had doubts. Three months before her death she confided to her spiritual advisor: “Jesus has a very special love for you,” she assured her spiritual adviser Van der Peet. “[But] as for me, the silence and the emptiness is so great, that I look and do not see,–Listen and do not hear–the tongue moves [in prayer] but does not speak … I want you to pray for me–that I let Him have [a] free hand.” She had a crisis of faith, and she is not alone. There was St John of the Cross who talked about his "dark night of the soul." Cardinal Lawrence in the movie admitted to a crisis of faith. Doubt is a time that allows a person to grow, and experience new ideas, thoughts and feelings. Such doubts should not be avoided, but used for wisdom and guidance.
In our polarized world, there is something to be said for doubt. Certainty can pose issues, and not all good. Certainty can lead to hubris. Donald Trump was certain about his tariffs, until he wasn't. Or until he was again. In 2021 the Federal Reserve was certain that inflation was transitory. Until it wasn't. Doubt, or questioning may have been useful at those times in policy setting. If you are certain you do not have to engage in dialogue or collaborate. You can, as suggested in the movie, lack tolerance. In the world of faith it can make ones faith a spiritual sickness, as Pope Francis said early on in his pontificate: "We have to avoid the spiritual sickness of a self–referential church. It's true that when you get out into the street, as happens to every man and woman, there can be accidents. However, if the church remains closed in on itself, self–referential, it gets old." When one becomes too certain of oneself, you risk becoming closed into yourself, a know-it-all, and pedantic. Some like the idea of being self-referential, they see themselves as the vanguard of tradition and doctrine. But they miss that lives are not black and white, that bad things happen, that people have accidents that affect their lives. In being so certain of themselves, they are quick to judge and miss the basic merciful message of the Gospel. They are like the Pharisees that Jesus spoke against, with their attention to detail and every law getting in the way of the Gospel message.![]() |
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Poor doubting Thomas, for 2000 years he has often been viewed with negativity, when in essence he may have been the most honest of the apostles, being skeptical, being human. Being doubtful allows for debate and questioning, and if what ones think is truth cannot withstand debate and questioning, than perhaps there is something wrong. With certainty being an opposite of doubt, we have to wonder if Thomas, being doubtful, was not the most honest of all gathered in the upper room in Jerusalem the week after Easter. Although, doubtful Didymus discovered his Lord and God with the proof of having touched the nail holes in Christ's appendages, and his hand in his side. We do not have that privilege, so we will go along and depend on the mystery of faith. And, if there is some doubt, we have the experience of Didymus to guide us.



















